Today, I don't have any pretty pictures or any pretty thoughts. Today, I just need to vent.
Life is full of ups and downs. Many times when I am on that proverbial mountaintop a tiny little voice will whisper in my ear, "watch out, the valley comes next. It always does and that is life but that doesn't make it feel any better. My soapbox for today - gossip.
Gossip can be so tempting. Even if you try your darndest not to partake in it, a juicy morsel is so hard to pass up hearing. I bought these building during a difficult time in my life. They have been my salvation(and I do not mean that disrespectfully). They have been my escape for the last 5 years. An escape from a community that I never quite fit it to. My friend always tells me that it is because I do not march to their drummer. Private schools that spill into private churches that spill into private cliques that I have never been a part of nor really wished to be. I am shy by nature and keep to myself. I like it that way. I escape to my quite little life in a tiny little town where no one knows me. I just wanted to blend in and disappear. On most days, this is my life. I have the power to make it my own and that makes me happy. Today, gossip robbed this from me. It makes me angry with myself that I have allowed this to happen but all I can say is, I can't help it! Gossip of this kind is usually...simply put...dirt and misinformation! I have heard it said, "great people talk about ideas, average people talk about things, and small people talk about other people" How true! But it still hurts, it stings to the soul, and the effects of it may ripple in to someone's life for a very long time. Today, I am sad and mad and hurt to the depth of my being. Tomorrow, I will pull up my pink big girl panties and move forward. If you made it this far on my rantings and ravings, I thank you. Thank you for letting me vent. Thank you, in advance, for the next time you hear a juicy morsel, let it go. Don't repeat it unless you are asking the source of that information of its validity. We never know the reasons for other people's actions. We usually haven't walked" a step"much less "a mile "in the other persons shoes! I promise to be better tomorrow.
Life is full of ups and downs. Many times when I am on that proverbial mountaintop a tiny little voice will whisper in my ear, "watch out, the valley comes next. It always does and that is life but that doesn't make it feel any better. My soapbox for today - gossip.
Gossip can be so tempting. Even if you try your darndest not to partake in it, a juicy morsel is so hard to pass up hearing. I bought these building during a difficult time in my life. They have been my salvation(and I do not mean that disrespectfully). They have been my escape for the last 5 years. An escape from a community that I never quite fit it to. My friend always tells me that it is because I do not march to their drummer. Private schools that spill into private churches that spill into private cliques that I have never been a part of nor really wished to be. I am shy by nature and keep to myself. I like it that way. I escape to my quite little life in a tiny little town where no one knows me. I just wanted to blend in and disappear. On most days, this is my life. I have the power to make it my own and that makes me happy. Today, gossip robbed this from me. It makes me angry with myself that I have allowed this to happen but all I can say is, I can't help it! Gossip of this kind is usually...simply put...dirt and misinformation! I have heard it said, "great people talk about ideas, average people talk about things, and small people talk about other people" How true! But it still hurts, it stings to the soul, and the effects of it may ripple in to someone's life for a very long time. Today, I am sad and mad and hurt to the depth of my being. Tomorrow, I will pull up my pink big girl panties and move forward. If you made it this far on my rantings and ravings, I thank you. Thank you for letting me vent. Thank you, in advance, for the next time you hear a juicy morsel, let it go. Don't repeat it unless you are asking the source of that information of its validity. We never know the reasons for other people's actions. We usually haven't walked" a step"much less "a mile "in the other persons shoes! I promise to be better tomorrow.
Gossip really does sting when one is the subject of gossip. It also stings later as paranoia or guilt, if one is the gossiper. I'm sorry for your troubles. The last time it happened to me, I had to keep reminding myself that most people talk and move on to some other tidbit of "news," and that my real friends would know who I really am, and allow me to be less than perfect.
ReplyDeleteSorry this has happened.... you are such a nice person and they can't take that away from you. You know who you are ... I guess just laugh and realize that if they are talking about you then they are giving someone else a break.
ReplyDeleteHope your day is better tomorrow!
Effie
You know that you are loved by two of your favorite part-time helpers and 3 of your full time family members!
ReplyDeleteHave you ever noticed that gossipers have oversize ears and large, fat tongues?
ReplyDeleteBeen catching up with your blog and must respond to this one in simply saying, "Amen.....and this too shall pass....on to better & brighter things, my dear friend."
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